Let me start off by saying, God is real. You don't know me or anything about me but I can assure you he exists, in fact his non existence negates our existence . As you read my blogs you will find me always trying to convince you of God unless you're a Christian in which you can read my journey or also, absolutely no one is reading which I am ready prepared for. Some time ago I watched a youtube video (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NvvClFSMIzA&feature=related) about a Muslim man who was fiercely dedicated to his religion, he got arrested in his country (somewhere in Asia) and he would teach prisoners about Allah and Islam. one day in his cell an evil spirit came and began choking him and he cried out to Allah for help repeatedly, but nothing happened the spirit persisted, then he heard a voice saying try the name 'Jesus' and the man, nearly choked to death said ' okay if you are the real God, then Jesus help me' instantly the spirit left and the man was revived, when I watched this testimony I was so in awe I thought this is amazing and showed it to my Muslim friend, he told me, it could be fake or there is no way I can believe that. He didn't make me doubt the story but I shocked people wouldn't immediately turn to Christ after watching this, I am naive I know.
Well the point of me telling this story is that what happened to that man was for HIM he said he doesn't mind if no one believes him because it was his experience with God no one else, so in relation to me as I write my blogs I will talk about my life and how God is no doubt helping me , and I would love you to want him in your life as well but if not , then it's okay because the things God do for me are for me and he does not provide signs , it is only your heart that will bring you to him.
ANYWAYS I'm under 22, female and working full-timeee somewhere you wouldn't' want to be working full time I named my self runawaysheep because I am one of Jesus's sheep but I have run away from him because when I do try to be like him , I don't know maybe I am not patient but things progress slowIy, I did not attend college/university simply because I don't see the point, it is great for many but I truly believe it is not for me.
SO WHAT DO I WANT TO DO IN LIFE?? well really all I want to achieve in life is:
1. Rid my parents (and loved ones) of all outstanding financial difficulties
2.Me myself not have to worry about money
3. Get married and have children
4. Most importantly be as filled with the holy spirit and as faithful a servant I can be in this world.
Some days I feel like I can change and other days I fell like it is not possible for me to change but what are my options? I just want my life to improve you've just read my current situation how in the world can I achieve my goals with barely any qualifications, it would take a miracle I'm not even sure of what career I want to pursue all I can do is stop crying and trust in God or, who knows what else.
well that it for now but I will leave you with some inspirational words to everyone who worries , all of us do from Jesus's mouth.
Matthew 6:25 Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?
Matthew 6:27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
Matthew 6:33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
Pray for me.
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